"That’s what makes it worse than cheating yourself into thinking that you had something because when you did think you had something, you felt safe. You didn’t even know it was all a lie. Now you’re stuck; you can’t go back seeing how you know it was all a perfect world created by imagination. You’re alone, completely and utterly alone. No matter how many people are going to tell you that you aren’t, and things are going to be okay… a little part of you continues to decay until there’s nothing left of you and you can never persuade yourself to trust or be close to anyone ever again. The only thing that stays the same, is that you’re still as cold hearted to yourself as you were when this all started."
**I can’t believe she was only 15 when she wrote this.
Am I lucky or unlucky for putting that feeling off for twice as long?
[Tags] lonely
